Stephanie!!!

  Where do I even begin this post??  I guess what would be best is telling you exactly who Stephanie is.  Stephanie is my best friend and has been for nearly 14 years!  We have seen many good times and many bad times.  We have smiled and laughed and also cried our eyes out together.  I met Stephanie the fall of our 8th grade year and we became instant friends.  During high school we rode to school together everyday and went to parties every weekend. After high school we kind of drifted apart, for a while  anyhow. Then after having my daughter we lived together or next door to each other.  We grew back together, we grew up together. January of 2014 her husband joined the military and I knew we would probably never live in the same town as her again,  but I also knew that she would always still be my best friend.  We spent nearly every day with each other from the moment he joined till the day they left for Germany in May. It was probably  one of the hardest moments of my life.  Now it's 3 am Skype's and facebook messenger  random messages because we can't seem to catch each other at times.  It's hard having a best friend on the other side of the world but I still know she's always there with me. She's everything you could want in a friend and I'm so glad to call her my very best friend.  Stephanie thank you so much for being you.  I love you!! 

Three of my goals.

   Three goals I have made for myself are to lose weight, get my degree, and be a better parent. I plan to start my goal of losing weight this Monday. I will start eating better and going to the gym regularly. My short term goal for losing weight is 50 lbs, with eating correctly and working out regularly I should be able to reach this goal rather quickly. My second goal of getting my degree is more of a long term goal. To be able to achieve this I first have to get my associates from Western then I want to go back to Cameron and get a bachelors in Accounting. My third goal for now is to be a better parent and that is an everyday continuous goal. No one can ever be too good of a parent, it is an everyday struggle to decide what is best for a child or children. So I continuely try to better myself in that department.

My Stepmother

                        All week I have been trying to figure out what to write about as the event that changed my life forever. I've went from the birth of my kids, to various breakups, to stories of my childhood all the way to adulthood and sitting here still wondering what I should write about it hit me. My step mother, my life changed drastically when my stepmother entered the picture. Most people thing when they hear the word Stepmother of something evil or bad but I was lucky. I have the world's greatest stepmother. She deserves an award for the role she took on of raising my brother and I. My parent's divorced when I was five and my dad shortly after remarried and obtained custody of us. My stepmother always treated us as if we were her own. Every practice, game or play she was there cheering us on. She was so selfless whatever we wanted to do we did. She'd haul all of us and all of our friends to and from sporting events. She would ride the roller coasters with us at theme parks. Most of all though when we had or now when we have a problem she will come running to our side to clean up our bruised knees or elbows or broken hearts. I'll never forget the night that I was crying I couldn't get the baby to sleep and I was having issues with my then boyfriend when she called. It was the middle of the night and she asked what was wrong. I asked her how she knew something was wrong and she just said it's a mother's intuition. I love that about her and now with my own kids I see a lot of who she is coming out in me and I absolutely love it. Most people say they hate that they are becoming like their mother, not I though I would be proud to be half the woman that my stepmother is. She is an amazing woman who deserves everything in the world for raising us to be who we are today.

Grandpa, tell me bout the good ole days...

My grandpa used to sit and tell me stories of the good ole days. I remember as a child that I once told him Grandpa you've told us this story a thousand times before. Looking back I realize I should have listened just one more time. My grandpa was an amazing, smart, and caring individual. He was the rock that held our family together the one you turned to in a time of need. Yesterday my grandpa would have been 89 years old, he's been dead for ten years this year. October 2, 2005, it was the worst day of my life that I have encountered to this day. I've never felt so alone as the day he died. You'd have thought I talked to the man every day the way I talk about him yet the truth is I only got to see him usually once a year. We lived here in Oklahoma and he lived in Kentucky. That one week a year I got to see him always brings a smile to my face. I remember when he used to get down in the floor with my brother, cousin and I and wrestle with us. The times he'd get down there and color, so many good memories flood my brain when I think of him. He taught me so much about life and he taught me that the only person that can make my life good is me. I am so thankful for my Grandpa. I know he's up there underneath that shade tree looking down on me and I know he's proud.

Becoming a mother..

 

 

 

 

Becoming a mother..

 

 

    I never expected my life to turn out this way, but I wouldn't change it. Shortly after high school graduation I found out I was pregnant with my daughter and although it was unexpected it would turn out to be the most exciting and rewarding journey I could have ever imagined. About two years after having my daughter I found out I was pregnant with my son and I knew life would again change. It was a struggle and still is a struggle everyday juggling everything that is thrown at you in life. Over the years I have learned that life is all about what you make of it. Being a single mom is not easy but it is super rewarding, I get twice the love. When I feel like giving up I can look in those kid's eyes and I know my purpose. I was created for them, I am their number one. They are the reason I am here taking this course and the reason I choose to keep on pushing forward everyday. Some days are harder then others but I always know they are watching my every move and that one day they will look back and they will be able to see that I did all this for them. I want so much for them because they deserve everything big and small in the world.

Five years from now I will be..

 

 

 

Five years from now I will be...

 

 

Five years, seems like so long but really it all happens in a blink of an eye. In five years, I will be the mother of a thirteen year old and a ten year old. I will have just finished my bachelors degree and either be working in the accounting field or looking for work in the accounting field. I also hope to be pursuing a master's degree. I hope to have found the love of my life and be happily married. I will be enjoying life as a mother and a wife. I will be living on a good amount of land on the outskirts of town. I have always wanted a quiet country life. I will be providing for my family and financially stable. I know I can achieve these goals by staying focused and by climbing any walls that may appear in my way.