My weekend

I was very blessed this last week. I was able to take off early on Thursday morning and ventured down to Dallas, where I picked up my best friend from the airport. She flew in from Germany and gets to spend the next three weeks visiting. Friday I had the day off as well so we stayed in Dallas on Thursday night and my kids and I were able to spend time with her and her kids. Saturday I went to the gym and had a great workout and then went and shot in a pool tournament. I met some new people and got to be around family and good friends. Then today on Sunday we had my daughters 8th birthday party. She got everything she wanted for her birthday and had a great time celebrating. I had fun catching up with old friends and family I hadnt seen in a while due to everyones busy schedules. I had a wonderful weekend and am not looking forward to the Monday morning blues.

A Moral Dilemma

A moral dilemma I have personally faced was my child taking something from the store without paying for it. I remember my son was four years old and he kept talking about the candy he wanted to get while I was going thru the checkout. Little did I know he had picked up the candy and put it in his pocket while I was setting the groceries on the conveyor belt. When we got in the car and got down the street a bit, he said mom look I have candy!! I proceeded to ask him how he got the candy and he stated he put it in his pocket because he wanted it and I wouldn't buy it. Now the easy thing would have been to keep going down the street and talk to him about it when we got home. I didn't do that though I found the nearest u-turn and turned my car around and drove back to that grocery store. Walking in my son is in tears because he now knows this is serious, I walked him back the the register we checked out at and made him tell the cashier that he stole the candy and that he was sorry and would never do it again. The cashier was very stern with him on the consequences of him stealing and that a police officer could arrest him for committing a crime of that nature. I appreciate her for also giving him that speech. While it was embarrassing to both my son and I that we had to go back in the store and take that candy back, I believe it is a lesson he will always remember. He will tell that story still to his friend's because even though he is young it is now instilled in his mind of how wrong stealing something actually is.

Being single...

   There was once a time that I thought to be happy I needed to be in a relationship. Now I realize that the only person that can make me happy is myself. There is no one in the world that can control my happiness except for myself. That is the best and worst thought in the whole world. I learned after breaking up with my boyfriend last year that I control my own destiny. I have to give him thanks for letting me go. I would have never have become the person that I am today if he hadn't. I get compliments all the time on how happy I look and how I even look healthier. Over the course of the past year I pulled out my deepest darkest demons and I promised to conquer them. Although I still wake up every day and have to fight them, I will continue to choose to fight everyday for me and for my children. I realized that I don't need a man but I want a man. I can be just as happy alone as I can with someone. I no longer look for someone who doesn't bring anything to the table, instead I look for someone who is an equal, someone who wants the same things out of life. I have grown as a person and I am happy with the person I am becoming. Finally I can smile in the mirror and know that it is a genuine smile.

Christmas Traditions

               Our Christmas begins Christmas Eve about 8:00 PM. It is one of the best days of the whole year for our family. My mom makes prime rib and we all sit down at the kitchen table and eat as one big happy family no matter what may be going on. After we eat then we open presents and the look on the kids faces when they get their new things is priceless. That look of surprise is awesome and it reminds me so much of my child hood. Both of my parents grew up poor so they never got much for Christmas. As adults its the holiday that they wanted their children to remember the most so they made sure it was the best day of the year for us growing up. I now try to carry on that tradition, and its not neccisarily all about the gifts but it is all about the love. The connection of family of us all sitting together laughing and loving one another. Christmas will always be my most favorite time of year. The time of year when giving is the reason for the season.

Vacation

I get to go to Kentucky in March and I am so excited.  All of my dads side of the family lives in Kentucky and I haven't seen any of them in nearly 4 years.  My brother,  my two kids,  and I will be going there for spring break.  It's just a small town in Kentucky not much there to do but I love the mountains and just getting to spend time with my family is more then enough.  We plan on also stopping in Nashville on the way home and going to the grand Ole opry  or some other tourist attraction.  I just want my kids to have the same kind of memories going there as I do.  Part of me wants to move to Kentucky but right now it's just not in the cards so I am looking forward to my vacation there!!

Overextended

The one characteristic I do not like about myself is that I often overextend myself.  When a friend calls I run right to their rescue even if I am in a bind myself.  I usually wind up with to many things to do and not enough time to you them in.  I wind up tired and overwhelmed. Some days I don't think I can trudge on. I am trying to create a schedule for myself so I am organized with my time and am able to flex myself for those times when someone calls on me.  I am also trying to learn how to say the word no.  This is very hard to do for me.  I believe with learning to say no when it's just not possible will help me in many areas.