Being single...

   There was once a time that I thought to be happy I needed to be in a relationship. Now I realize that the only person that can make me happy is myself. There is no one in the world that can control my happiness except for myself. That is the best and worst thought in the whole world. I learned after breaking up with my boyfriend last year that I control my own destiny. I have to give him thanks for letting me go. I would have never have become the person that I am today if he hadn't. I get compliments all the time on how happy I look and how I even look healthier. Over the course of the past year I pulled out my deepest darkest demons and I promised to conquer them. Although I still wake up every day and have to fight them, I will continue to choose to fight everyday for me and for my children. I realized that I don't need a man but I want a man. I can be just as happy alone as I can with someone. I no longer look for someone who doesn't bring anything to the table, instead I look for someone who is an equal, someone who wants the same things out of life. I have grown as a person and I am happy with the person I am becoming. Finally I can smile in the mirror and know that it is a genuine smile.